Never Again

My heart was
A fool to fall in love with you
Like a siren

You lured it upon
The rocks of despair – then
Watched it burn

Never again
Will it be played the fool by a
Pretty smile

Next time my eyes
See a girl in trouble my feet will
Walk the other way

First and Last

Your words
Whisper within my ears morning
Noon and night

Just as your always
In my thoughts from dawn till sunset
Within my dreams

A Tangle of Weeds

You are my first blank thought
upon the earliest streak of light I see
You are my last sure word
before darkness envelopes me completely

And in between these, I find myself
lost in hopes, wishes and longings
humid dreams from leftover melancholic sunsets
clinging to your awaited rationed sightings

©NMY. 2018.

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True Love vs: Infatuation

True love is a principle not a feeling of attraction that is here today and gone tomorrow; but most of all it is a choice that one intentionally makes when the romantic feelings have vanished into thin air.

No Longer Afraid of Being Alone

For as long as I can remember
of being alone I’ve been afraid
to avoid ending up alone and lonely
is why I married and started a family

Even after twenty-four years of marriage
my wife still doesn’t understand me
no longer do I think that she ever will
if she ever does no longer do I care

Growing up in a blended family many times over
alone I always was and learned to be
not once was I ever understood
nor did those around me ever really try

With my childhood in such utter chaos
the result of my parents immature choices
kept off balance by abuse and depression
until sixteen my world just kept spinning

From state to state and town to town
my parents kept us moving
so from school to school did I hop
that even now my friendships don’t last

Now that over the hill I am
of this I’ve come to accept and embrace
my life shall always be very lonely
for a loner truly I am and will always be

No longer do I seek the acceptance of others
for without a single doubt
they’ll only see what they want to see
the acceptance and understanding I crave

From within myself I’ll just have to make do
alone with my dreams and fantasies
the books and movies upon my book shelves
and my best friend the computer upon my desk